Realizations

I set this blog up now because I realized today that I will be in Germany in less than two months time.
I've yet to give this much thought --despite how life-altering this experience is sure to be. Lately, I've been concerned with other things going on in my life. Things such as my internship which begins next week and which I am apprehensive about. Or my senior thesis which is nothing more than a list of books on a working bibliography --practically all of which, I have no idea how to get ahold of. Or trying to find a way to make some money so I can get out of debt and afford a plane ticket to get there because I'm hardly getting any hours at work because they're severely over-staffed.
I've wasted away winter break and most of January watching the first seasons of Heroes and the Tudors on DVD, playing FIFA 06 and working on a novel because my muse is with me at present and i hate to not take advantage of that. I know that I've got to get off my ass and be productive though. I began looking at ticket prices today and my lack of funds made me depressed so I decided to start this blog now rather than later as a way to start the preparations I know I'm going to have to make. I have to contact my family in Krefeld because I know it'll be harder for me to do so while I'm there, despite being a mere 40 miles away instead of 4300. I have to practice speaking German quite a bit because being able to read it is not going to cut it. I have so many things I know I have to do but it's so hard for me to come up with a list on cue and all of them swirling around in my subconscious just out of my reach is beginning to drive me mad.
I feel like I'm rambling now and I really don't want you all to become disinterested because I want you to continue to read this --I know I'll need that connection with you all while I'm there. So I will leave this first posting at that and will no doubt post again soon and will continue to do so occasionally until I get to Germany when I will begin to post daily.