My life at present is not much better off than it was when I last posted –in some areas (notably my thesis), it’s quite worse due simply to the fact that it is has now been three weeks since then and I haven’t worked much on any of the things I wrote about before. My daily schedule is split into two halves –the first, in which I am at the high school doing my internship– and the latter, in which I go to work at Ardenwoods. I’m working weekends and about three weekdays and on my days off I usually do something when I come home from school like get called into work. So needless to say, I have resolved my schedule situation at work –or rather it has been resolved– I don’t take credit for its resolution. I can now a afford a plane ticket but it’d still be nice to have some back-up money before I leave (in just over a month now), so I’m gladly working every shift they wish me to.
This isn’t the reason I haven’t worked on my thesis –that’s due to my laziness and procrastination. I dunno what I’m gonna do about that and I don’t even want to think about it right now.
I’m glad I did start posting now, before I left the states because there were some things I’d even forgotten entirely –like contact my family in Germany. I’ll do that soon…
All in all, I am very ready to leave. I feel like I’m waiting and I can’t really do anything until what I’ve been waiting for is over. I know as soon as I get there I’m going to feel a thousand times less stressed than I am now and being so close but so far away from such relief is only further adding to my current stress.
But it’s not all bad; I taught my first lesson today. I was nervous, of course, and I taught it much faster than I had anticipated and finished up with too much time than what would have been considered acceptable if I was the teacher. But matters such as this are not what worry me about going into the field. I know it’s just nerves. And pacing can only be learned with practice so I’m not concerned. Instead, I’m happy with how well I held the students’ attention and how efficient I was relaying the material to them.
I believe that’s all I wanted to write for now. Hopefully the next entry will bear better news about my thesis and such.
Peace.
22.1.09
Realizations
I set this blog up now because I realized today that I will be in Germany in less than two months time.
I've yet to give this much thought --despite how life-altering this experience is sure to be. Lately, I've been concerned with other things going on in my life. Things such as my internship which begins next week and which I am apprehensive about. Or my senior thesis which is nothing more than a list of books on a working bibliography --practically all of which, I have no idea how to get ahold of. Or trying to find a way to make some money so I can get out of debt and afford a plane ticket to get there because I'm hardly getting any hours at work because they're severely over-staffed.
I've wasted away winter break and most of January watching the first seasons of Heroes and the Tudors on DVD, playing FIFA 06 and working on a novel because my muse is with me at present and i hate to not take advantage of that. I know that I've got to get off my ass and be productive though. I began looking at ticket prices today and my lack of funds made me depressed so I decided to start this blog now rather than later as a way to start the preparations I know I'm going to have to make. I have to contact my family in Krefeld because I know it'll be harder for me to do so while I'm there, despite being a mere 40 miles away instead of 4300. I have to practice speaking German quite a bit because being able to read it is not going to cut it. I have so many things I know I have to do but it's so hard for me to come up with a list on cue and all of them swirling around in my subconscious just out of my reach is beginning to drive me mad.
I feel like I'm rambling now and I really don't want you all to become disinterested because I want you to continue to read this --I know I'll need that connection with you all while I'm there. So I will leave this first posting at that and will no doubt post again soon and will continue to do so occasionally until I get to Germany when I will begin to post daily.
I've yet to give this much thought --despite how life-altering this experience is sure to be. Lately, I've been concerned with other things going on in my life. Things such as my internship which begins next week and which I am apprehensive about. Or my senior thesis which is nothing more than a list of books on a working bibliography --practically all of which, I have no idea how to get ahold of. Or trying to find a way to make some money so I can get out of debt and afford a plane ticket to get there because I'm hardly getting any hours at work because they're severely over-staffed.
I've wasted away winter break and most of January watching the first seasons of Heroes and the Tudors on DVD, playing FIFA 06 and working on a novel because my muse is with me at present and i hate to not take advantage of that. I know that I've got to get off my ass and be productive though. I began looking at ticket prices today and my lack of funds made me depressed so I decided to start this blog now rather than later as a way to start the preparations I know I'm going to have to make. I have to contact my family in Krefeld because I know it'll be harder for me to do so while I'm there, despite being a mere 40 miles away instead of 4300. I have to practice speaking German quite a bit because being able to read it is not going to cut it. I have so many things I know I have to do but it's so hard for me to come up with a list on cue and all of them swirling around in my subconscious just out of my reach is beginning to drive me mad.
I feel like I'm rambling now and I really don't want you all to become disinterested because I want you to continue to read this --I know I'll need that connection with you all while I'm there. So I will leave this first posting at that and will no doubt post again soon and will continue to do so occasionally until I get to Germany when I will begin to post daily.
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